i am a coconut.

Good Looks

 
Finished this today of my husband and his cousins. They are the nicest, warmest group of people! :) I am so happy to have gotten out of my scrapping rut!

I have not scrapbooked in a long time but my stepdaughter sure has! I wonder where she gets her mad scrapping skills?




I love that she gets IT. My kind of scrapbooker!

I am making a conscious effort to be with my family more and just push through exhaustion. Last week's funeral really helped to put things into perspective. What if someone else passes away in my family and I never spent the time I could with them? What if "next time" never happens again? What happens if my mom passes away and I never learned her recipes? What if I never really got to tell my father that I am grateful for all that he has done for me growing up? What if my siblings never know how proud I am of them, of their accomplishments, of the people they have become? What if their spouses, girlfriends, boyfriends don't know how much I appreciate them and the way they take care of my siblings?

Last night, I went to a Lea Salonga concert with my family. I had opted not to purchase tickets because we are trying to cut back on costs, but as fate would have it, my uncle passes away and there was magically an extra ticket. I did not want my aunt to go alone so I agreed to be her date for the night. I had dinner with my family before the concert and I truly took the time to be with them, to experience their company, and not take them for granted like I always have. The concert was extraordinary. Not because of the music (which was spectacular) but because of the company.

Afterward, my other aunt wanted to take us out for ox tail soup. Um, yeah. So not the choice of food for this coconut girl, but she wouldn't have missed it for the world. We trekked on over to a casino and sampled fine dining at its best. Well, the best that $4 would buy. :) You can't beat graveyard specials at casinos for locals. I am such a homebody that I never take the time to do this stuff with my family anymore. At least not lately. We used to do it all the time as a child, but not as an adult whose bed was calling her name at 9:00 PM.

I went to bed at 2 AM and that is OK. I am tired but happy. I got to spend it with crazy, ox tail eating, brown people and we laughed all the way home. These under eye circles were so worth it.

My uncle's funeral was yesterday. I was dreading the event and I couldn't wait for it to be over. My aunt was open, vulnerable, and strong. She spoke about the loving relationship she had with her husband. My husband and I sang with a few of our choir members. My sisters presented a slide show. My parents provided the Filipino food. My brother read a poem. I felt sad but so relieved. I did not feel like I was the pillar holding up my aunt. We were all holding each other up.

It was a long day, but oh so worth it. My family spent time with each other and learned more about each other. I found out more about my sister-in-law who is the best new mommy. I know that my sisters and I really do stick together. I was reunited with my "aunties" and "uncles" from years past. I am not technically related to them but they were all family this day. I was overwhelmed by the love and support from everyone who attended. This is where we find out who our friends really are.

I thank you all for your prayers and kindness. I'm nobody special. But these past few days have shown me that goodness is still present in this harsh world. I am feeling pretty special today.

Yesterday happened so fast. I was at one of the many manager meetings on my calendar when my work cell phone vibrated incessantly for 5 minutes. Usually, my staff leaves a message and I call them back right away after the meeting. But this day was different. The hospital was calling, overhead paging me over and over again. There was a family emergency. I called the ER manager and she let me know that my uncle was brought into the ER and that the outcome "did not look good." As a nurse, I knew exactly what that meant. I rushed to the ER and find my aunt sobbing by my uncle's still body.

He was on his way to buy the morning paper while my aunt cooked breakfast. Things they do every day. Some of the neighbors found him and started CPR. Paramedics were called and he was intubated on site. They continued to attempt reviving him all the way to the ER. He had a massive heart attack and was probably dead before they found him. My aunt was notified that her husband was brought to the hospital and she followed.

I found her crying over hear husband's body. He was gone and he never said goodbye. She clung to me like a lost child who just found her mommy. What could I say? I am so sorry.

He was just going to get the paper. I was cooking breakfast. Last night, he held me and told me he truly loved me. We were looking forward to spending the whole day together. He took care of me. I am mad at him for leaving me without talking to me. He is gone. Forever.

My family came one by one and I watched my aunt unravel over and over again. I heard her say the same things to them. My head and my heart hurt. I am glad it is not me. What an awful thing to think.

The night before, my husband and I argued. Over something so stupid. Usually, I like to argue. I find it fun sometimes. I pick a fight sometimes. Knowing that beneath it all, our relationship is solid, that we could weather through anything, even stupid meaningless arguments.

It's no secret I like to be alone. Living with 4 brothers and sisters left me deaf and territorial. Nothing was ever my own. I must always share. And I must always fight over which television channel and radio station could drown out the other. I found myself like this with my husband. I needed me time. All the time. My husband understands this and encourages alone time. What a selfish brat. I never want to be THIS alone.

Last night, after they picked up my uncle's body, after the grueling appointment with the funeral home (please, just place me in a cardboard box and bury me in the backyard- I don't care), my aunt reminds me that I should take care of my husband, that I should treasure each and every moment with him. These moments might never happen again. Everyday things like getting a kiss goodbye before he goes to work, the feel of his hand on my hip when we fall asleep at night, the way he encourages my creativity, his reassurances that I am doing a great job at work, the way he embraces my family, the way he took on the role of full time dad with Junior, the fact that he filled my gas tank without being asked...I can list so many things that mean so little to other people but means oh so much to me.

Sometimes, I need a big swift kiss in the ass to point me in the right direction. This was exactly that. Now to get my aunt through this...

I am trying to squeeze in some creative time before I go in to work. I took a day off this week for doctor's appointments and am making up the day today. I don't feel like going in, but I am thankful I have a job to go to in this economy. Hope you all take some time to be creative today! :)

Birthday Card

 
Supplies:
Bazzill cardstock
Brauhaus 93 font cut with SCAL/Cricut
Sizzix Daisy die cuts
vellum unknown
button unknown
Scenic Route patterned cardstock
Chatterbox patterned paper
DCWV pink cardstock
Stampin' Up! Scallop Edge punch

Finished this card today. I am rediscovering fonts I forgot I had in my library.

Birthday Card

 
Supplies:

Bazzill kraft cardstock
Bazzill red cardstock
2Peas Miss Happy font cut with Sure Cuts a Lot on my Cricut
Stampin' Up! Happy Everything stamp set
Stampin' Up! Word Window punch
Stampin' Up! Scallop Edge punch
StazOn Timber Brown ink
clear embossing powder unknown
unknown ribbon scrap
Scenic Route patterned cardstock
Stampin' Up! Polka Dot stamp
Versamark ink

I'm an Oprah fan and I catch up on my DVRd episodes from time to time. I love all of her shows. Except this particular episode. Last week, she had a show about how to talk to your daughters about sex. I learned about "sexting." I didn't know that the photos my husband and I send to each other had a name. Ha! :) Anyway, what the heck? I can't even figure out how to text punctuation on my phone let alone send any photos of myself. Naked. And I am 35 years old, not 14. I had homework to do at that age. Teens know way too much about sex, more than me, I think. I learned that first base is kissing. Second base is feeling each other up. Third base is oral sex. WTF?! Fourth base is coitus. Girls give oral sex to boys in between periods. Can't they just smoke in the bathrooms before they get to their next class like the girls in my class did? Where are the smelling salts? I have the vapors.

The sex doctor on the show believes that we should teach our daughters how to pleasure themselves so that she does not have to depend on a boy to make her feel good about herself. When I say "pleasure" I don't mean the feeling you get when you eat a whole box of chocolate. I get what the doctor says in the sense that I would not want my (step)daughter to try to make herself popular or do anything stupid like make me a (step)grandma before I became a mom of my own. And then she mentioned vibrators. Oh, holy Lord. How do I even present this to my stepdaughter? In poster board form like I do for my staff when I present an in-service about medications and new supplies? I like to make my presentations interactive ya know.

I am so glad that my husband talks to Junior about that and that I am not really involved with these talks. Junior is a little uncomfortable and I am a LOT uncomfortable. Remember the hot dog talk? I rest my case. At times, I wish Abby lived with us, but after watching this show and the responsiblity of a mother to a daughter about sex, I say, Thank God. Then again, I could show her a few episodes of Rock of Love. She'll learn everything she ever needs to know.

My nephew says, "Happy Easter."